Day 38- Ignoring Self-Honesty to Compromise My Body

This blog post is inspired by https://vixensjourneytolife.wordpress.com/2020/05/06/living-with-being-body-and-mind-417/ .

A point in my reality that keeps reoccurring is where I ignore a moment of self-honesty within myself regards my wrist. I injured it recently and while the pain isn't horrible, it's clear to me that I must be careful with using it. However, there have been two moments where I ignored an opportunity to practice self-care and went ahead and used my wrist anyway.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise my physical body through using my wrist.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to go into extensive reaction after compromising my wrist/body, wherein I worried and became frustrated and angry with myself for compromising my body.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not realize that becoming agitated and upset about my poor choice was only making the situation worse.

When and as I see myself ignore a point of self-honesty within a moment as an opportunity to change, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that such moments are truly blessings of a limited nature.

I commit myself to STOP within a moment and change a pattern in real time.

Day 36- Redefining and Living Illness (Part 2)

In a previous post I set about redefining the word Illness. Within the redefinition process, I realized that I did not actually want to live the word Illness, even in it's redefined sense.

A cool realization opened up within this in that: who I am is not actually Illness. Despite whatever definition I myself or others have given me, I am not Illness. Thus, while the redefinition process assisted me in understanding better how I have been affected by and even attempted to live this word, ultimately, who I am is not living the word Illness and, at this point, I have no desire to live this word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attempt to live the word illness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to live the word illness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I am illness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that believing I am illness implies that I have accepted definitions from my external reality and tried to make them who I am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept the definition of illness from my external reality and attempt to make myself the definition of illness.
I forgive myself for not allowing myself to not realize that attempting to make myself the definition of illness implies that, in place of a solid foundation of understanding words and understanding how to live ones that align with my best possible self, I chose self-limitation as illness to try to make my reality take care of me, reproducing the dependency I learned at a young age at I time when I believe I was OK.
I forgive myself for not allowing myself to not realize that reproducing this pattern of illness and thus dependency implies that I have not become I-ndependent.

When and as I see myself go into a pattern of self-limitation manifested as illness, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that choosing illness as self-limitation does not serve the best possible version of me.

I commit myself to choose health and self-care as the foundation of the best possible version of myself in this lifetime.

Day 30- Do You Always Cancel Plans? This Might Explain Why

New post can be seen on steemit: Do You Always Cancel Plans? This Might Explain Why